Friday, September 21, 2012

Engagement Pictures!

So... we are 4 weeks away from our big day!!

It has been so fun to buy and plan and soon we will start putting all of this together for decorations and such!

It is all coming together... :)

My only wish is that the weather will be nice since we are having an outdoor wedding. It is a beautiful place and I am so hoping the weather cooperates. We do have a back up plan but of course I want my first choice!! :) haha

A few weeks ago, we drug Clint to Obion and Trimble while Callye snapped a few pics of us. He hates pictures but he did cooperate and they turned out good! The weather wasn't great and some of the qualities aren't great but my photographer is awesome! Even if she is my sister! :) We had a 5 and 10 year old with us too so the distractions were there as well. :)

Here a some of our pictures!

Most of these pictures were taken on the old condemned bridge that goes between Obion and Trimble. We used to walk this bridge a lot when I was a little girl and it made for some great pictures! A great spot!! :)

Thanks Callye! 

Friday, September 14, 2012

The things on my heart.

This time of my life is very exciting... I am getting married in 36 days!!!!! Oh man. :) This time is filled with invitations, showers, decorations, picking music, etc. It's exciting!!! It is also a little bit stressful. But mostly exciting.

But in this time of my life, I am also struggling a bit. I'm struggling with knowing what the Lord wants me to be doing. I loved El Salvador and I loved working with the orphans! I honestly thought that that is where I would be this time last year.  But the Lord had other plans. I am so excited to be getting married and eventually starting a family. But right now I don't feel like I'm doing all that I can so therefore I am not feeling fulfilled.

Does that make sense?

Don't get me wrong... I'm happy. I'm 110% sure that I am supposed to marry Clint and that I'm supposed to be here. I don't doubt that one bit. But it is so easy to focus on me me me and forget that there is SO much more that the Lord wants from me.

I'm currently working in a school again. I love working with the kids. I am enjoying getting to know the teachers. But I don't feel like I'll be doing this for a long time.

Just recently, as I was struggling with these feelings, through Sunday School, church, and a new Bible Study, the Lord reminded me that He will work on me until He calls me HOME. He is never finished with me. He has not forgotten about me.

That gave me such peace. Even in this time of waiting for Him, getting married, moving, starting new jobs, He is working within me! He has a plan for my life!! He will not give up on me.

But there I am again, wondering.... what should I be doing?? This morning as I was reading through some blogs... Lorraine at All Are Precious In His Sight, wrote about hoarding. When I first read the title I thought she meant STUFF. Ya know, like the TV show.

But she talked about hoarding our time, talents, money, and stuff. Time that we could be spending with others. Time that we could be volunteering, ministering to, and loving on other people. Talents that we could be using to glorify the Lord. Money that we could use on someone other than OURSELVES. That is a tough one. :) And stuff that we do NOT need but could bless someone else with that is in need.

This really "woke me up". It showed me that I do NOT have to be overseas to serve. I don't have to be doing certain things to do for others and to love my neighbor as myself.